2008-05-02 - 12:09 am
So many nights are as these, violent rain, wondrous lightning. As far back into childhood as one could rightly claim to recall, there have been these glorious storms. The few in my lifetime have been pure beauty, and I can only assume their mere sensation could never be lost.
Constantly lost in thoughts and daydreams I cannot escape my own mind. What do I seek? Who will I find.
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It played out in my head so well, I could swear I almost felt it. That instant when all the world melted away in the fiery space between two pairs of eyes locked in a stare. My entire body was screaming out to 'just go for it!' But fear just struck me with such force that I kinda chickened out. My legs trembled, my stomach did flips, I could feel every part of me trying so desperately to let it happen.
I am a fool, I should have, I know, I wanted to so badly. Every inch of me ached for that chance once more, and I blew it. My apologies, I wasn't sure you would let me, I don't know why. I cursed myself from the moment I got in the car. I wish that I had had more time, that we had more time. I was a fool, and perhaps this fool will not be foolish enough to pass up at the very chance...
I miss you, and hope that you safely made it through the storm...
kisses, my dear, forever ,or at least till we see each other again.
B.
